Well, I've been here two months now. The first month flew by and the second one crawled. I know it's been a while since I've written.
I think I was depressed for a while. Things at home were not going well for Candace and the boys. Things here were less than perfect (that's really all the detail I can give at this time). My spiritual life was suffering. I had no energy or motivation. I had no one who I felt like I could talk to about how I felt. I know it sounds like I'm whining, maybe I am.
I think I'm doing better now. I still feel alone here. Even though I'm surrounded by people all the time.
A lot of you know that my desire was to be a good example to the guys I am with over here. I feel like I am, but you know how that goes. I want to see results, changed lives. I don't like waiting on Gods timing. I want to plant seeds that will sprout and be ready to harvest the next week. Maybe through science we can create some seeds like that.
I feel alone in a very lost place. And I am no angel, let me be the first to admit.
Please continue to keep me in your prayers. Specifically for strength, patience and perseverance.
On a little lighter note, here's a sunrise. You find beauty where you can when you're stuck in a desert.
Kelly
3 comments:
Candace,
I can't imagine how hard it is to be apart from Kelly and take care of yourself and your boys. I'm praying for your family, and I know Kelly is being a minister in Qatar and a blessing to those he's with there.
Kelly,
My prayer is that He blesses you in an absolutely amazing way! Remember that we are called to plant His perfect seed in those that are without Him....He alone will harvest when ready. What a relief to me to know that it is not all in my hands.
I appreciate who you are bro. Your heart. Your desire to serve. Your mission. Your friendship.
May His perfect peace find you daily.
lee
Kelly, we have been missing you. I know that this has been tough but I also know the character that lies inside you. I know that the Holy Spirit is alive and well in your life...I have seen it with my own eyes. I think about you often and lift your name to God as often as I think about you. You are truly loved by people here on this earth and by a great big God.
julie
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